Our Last Days Alone

For the past days, I’ve been so pre-occupied with encouraging labor to begin. Last Friday Butch and I went to Greenhills and Trinoma (malls)). I walked for five hours! Besides the excitement of finally seeing and holding our li’l angel, Butch and I both have other reasons why we want Nigel to come soon. Butch wants to go straight to his paternity leave right after the long holiday vacation. As for me, I miss eating regular food and I still do not like pricking myself after meals.

I was praying to the Lord that I wanted to go into labor soon. But a voice told me this.

“There’s nothing you can do to make this any earlier. The day of your son’s birth has been decided on. Don’t you realize that when you start to get the contractions there’s NO MORE STOPPING. You will be a parent and you’re life will be completely changed…”

Those words astounded me.

I realized that after Nigel comes, everything will be a roller coaster ride. I will be walking on unfamiliar ground. A new chapter of my life will begin. And as I wait for his coming, Butch and I are given the chance to enjoy our last days alone. I’ve been enjoying our walks together in the mall. Also, I got a comment from a reader which I think was the best advice I got from my previous post “Walking and other ways to induce labor naturally”. This was a comment from Laane…

The best way is to give nature all the room she needs.
Meaning: relaxation... especially of the mind.
Some people are so willing to start labor that they release stress hormones which prevent it...

Thanks for the comment Laane, I needed to hear that!

I guess it’s just like trying to get pregnant. The more you fuzz and stress about it, the more it won’t happen. I experienced that too when Butch and I were still trying.

I’ll just patiently wait and enjoy my last days alone with Butch. I know for a fact that I will not be overdue. I know it like I knew from the very beginning that the sex of the baby will be male. By the way, next Tuesday, January 13 will be our 2nd wedding anniversary! Hmmm I wonder if Nigel’s going to be around by that time.